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better hope things turn around quick!
![]() NEAR MISS/CLOSE CALL MEME Whether it's hiding in a kitchen from some raptors or turning the corner too fast to see a crush walking by, the point is that whatever was going to happen, whether good or bad, only barely didn't happen. All the other details are up to you. |
surely nothing can go wrong with this
There is simply no logical way to make a man understand that decisions are made because they are the right thing to do when that man does not care about the right thing.
Spock is under no delusions that Kirk has come to care about the right thing or has become to any degree more selfless. However, he no longer raises strident protests to the frequent rescue missions the Enterprise undertakes. The lack of argument is enough; he does not require that Kirk believe in the things they do, only that he does them without unnecessary violence or loss of innocent life.
Spock is all too aware of the vast differences between Kirk and Jim. Anyone who looks at them and sees the same person is unfortunately blind. But Kirk is all he has, and so he will do his best, as Jim would have wished.
Even if Kirk does possess an unusually adept talent at getting beneath Spock's skin at the most irritating moments. Such as now, when Spock has already lost far too many crewmembers to this planet and its previously undocumented native and highly lethal fungal ecosystem.
At any other time, Spock would find the widespread infection of the base fungal creature fascinating. At the moment, he has the literal remains of Ensign Kalisnov up to his elbows and is doing his best to avoid losing the remainder of the away party to that same fate.
Kirk's comment is not appreciated.
Spock does not look away from the milling group of infected natives who are currently surrounding Lieutenant Fa'vi'do. He does not allow his jaw to clench. He ignores the urge to snap at Kirk, and instead keeps his tone perfectly level as he responds. ]
I was unaware you had decided to become a philosopher, Commander. [ Yeah, he's real pissed. And showing it, even though no one else will be able to tell. ] While I welcome your observations on both the unique predatory hierarchy of this planet and the wider natural cycle, I would prefer you deliver them following our successful retrieval of our crew.
[ Retrieval that's getting really damn urgent, what with the way the native fungal thralls are showing increased signs of intelligence — namely in the way they're making a purposeful effort to snatch away or break the protective gear the Enterprise crewmembers are wearing. ]
he's here for a good time not for a long time :)
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Uh-huh. Yup.
[ jim is similar to the other jim in many ways, but there are few in which they are (were) identical. one of which is the way jim pops the p at the end of words like 'yup' when he's really fucking annoyed. ]
The one fucking time I don't argue about landing for a fruitless mission.
[ he doesn't give a shit that spock's mad. he's mad too and he's not getting any joy out of having gotten under his skin. has it been mentioned that he's mad? because he is. just putting it out there.
there's an edge to his sigh when he moves to assist lieutenant fa'vi'do that no one will notice but spock, because it's another way the two jims match(ed): he's unsettled by the situation. now, jim's unsettled for far different reasons than the other him would have been, but the state of being is the same.
that said.
he saves the lieutenant not because he feels like he should, but because spock's not going to leave any of them behind without trying everything first and he's sick of this planet. he wants to move on.
(yeah, he's so good at moving on.)
anyway, as stated, he saves the lieutenant. and sure, a couple of natives pop along the way, but it's not actually his fault. he doesn't shoot them or anything. it's just that as soon as they notice him, they act like fucking land mines that he's put a heavy boot on. or a proximity mine, more accurately. he can either rush through and get fa'vi'do or he can loop around and take his time to avoid more infected natives dying and pick up fa'vi'do's corpse. he picks the former and tightens his mask for the slog.
he gets there just in time for one of the infected to almost manage to yank the guy's mask off. jim elbows the thing away and slams his hand onto the mask to keep it in place in the same second as this one pops too.
he's not sure why he does it. it's not like he cares about this guy and if he were infected he'd pop soon enough and they'd move on.
but instead he's dragging him back toward spock, one hand still pressed to the mask (he wasn't nice when he did it, the guy's probably got a broken nose under there. but he's not a fucking mushroom person, so we pick our battles here.) to keep it in place because the straps broke in the struggle.
he's panting slightly by the time he gets back, but it's not because he's out of breath. it's because he's even more big goddamn fucking mad now. ]
Can we stop trying to find surviving natives now and just get the fuck out of here, Captain?
[ oh, we're BOTH using titles now. that's the order of the day. ]
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In this regard, he and Kirk are far too alike.
Spock covers Kirk as he darts and shoves his way through the throng of hostiles. Another native pops as Spock delivers a neat shot to his? her? its head just as Kirk reaches Fa'vi'do. Spock watches as Kirk smacks the mask back onto the Lieutenant's face, makes a mental note of the likely injury, and then takes his next shot.
It does not matter that Fa'vi'do is injured at Kirk's hands — an unconscious mirror of Kirk's thoughts. So long as the Lieutenant is alive and uninfected, Kirk's methods are acceptable.
Spock takes the Lieutenant's weight as Kirk returns with him, quickly running a tricorder over his body to confirm a lack of internal spore matter. Then he turns to Kirk and repeats the procedure, only responding when he's determined that both men are without infection. ]
Affirmative. [ His eyes flick up to Kirk's, burning. ] Our objective is to retrieve the remaining crew members and locate an area that is either clear enough of radiation that we may beam up into quarantine, or defensible enough that we may prevent further losses while we wait for a shuttle to provide egress.
[ He does not bother to give the chances that either option will succeed. They are both unacceptably low. ]
[ He turns, scanning the milling crowd of fungal thralls and adds: ]
Your retrieval of Lieutenant Fa'vi'do was commendable.
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Then we move on.
[ there's nothing else left to do. there are no enterprise survivors left in that particular throng of creatures, and jim has no desire to go digging through just in case. he will have to simply accept that they are going to continue looking for survivors to their own detriment, however. he has no choice.
he's about to make further commentary to urge spock into hurrying the fuck up when his head snaps to look at him instead, flashfire anger burning in his throat. ]
Don't act like I did it out of the kindness of my heart. I did it because you wouldn't leave if I didn't. It was faster than continuing to argue with your stubborn ass.
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As I said, commendable. [ Desert dry. ] You are learning.
[ Spock has no issue being stubborn enough to annoy Kirk into following Starfleet protocol and ideals. Neither of them are at a dearth of pragmatism. That he has had need to apply his in novel ways since Kirk became his first officer is simply a matter of adapting to new circumstances.
Spock tucks away the tricorder and adjusts his hold on the injured lieutenant. He does not bother scanning himself when he already knows the results. ]
I have laid a perimeter to cover our retreat. It will ignite in twenty seven seconds. Do you have a recommended area in which to set our defense?
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[ jim never gets quite this incensed, nor does he snap in ways that don't involve some kind of sassy prod. it's just something about today, something about the unease settling in his gut, that's putting him so much more on edge than he ever is.
something is wrong that he's not seeing and he doesn't like it. his instincts are never, ever wrong.
in any case, it's easier to move on and push forward instead of dwelling, though he notes spock not scanning himself and that doesn't sit right either. his eyes narrow briefly, but he does, at least, have an answer to the question. ]
The hill backed up to a cliff face about one klick to the South. The saturation of infected there was less dense and it's more easily defensible than a more open area.
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At least Kirk does not let his pique distract from his duty.
Spock nods at the offered suggestion; he does not doubt Kirk's tactical mind. If he has determined that to be the most defensible situation, it will be most suitable to their needs. ]
Then we will regroup there. Notify the Enterprise and the other members of the Away Team.
[ He doesn't wait for Kirk's agreement, just pulls out his phaser and begins dragging Fa'vi'do towards the cliffs and Kirk's hill. ]
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ugh. whatever.
by the time spock's agreeing with his assessment, jim's just nodding and starting in that direction, pulling out his comm to bark out curt orders to relay the new position to the away team and then the crew aboard the enterprise.
with that done, he keeps an eye out as they travel. it's oddly uneventful in a way he doesn't like, that feels like it bodes badly for their progress. but there are only a few infected that need to get popped off or avoided, and they reach their destination.
the hill is clear. jim exhales a breath he didn't know he was holding, then sets about making sure the perimeter is actually defended instead of just potentially so. he looks to spock wordlessly and tilts his head toward a cluster of rocks that would be suitable to prop fa'vi'do up against, then goes back to work. ]
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When they reach the target location, Spock sets Fa'vi'do down against the cluster of rocks and pulls out his tricorder again. He leaves the perimeter to Kirk, instead scanning for the ion storm disrupting transporters, for any incoming life signs — and while Kirk is distracted, the progress of the fungal infection in his body.
By the time Kirk returns, he has the tricorder tucked away and is instead digging around in the guts of his communicator, an attempt to boost the signal now that they intend to remain in one place. He looks up, gives Kirk a nod as he returns to the clearing. ]
Kora'g, Ro, and Neetah have checked in. They anticipate they will be able to safely rendezvous within thirty minutes.
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cold, expressionless. shot after shot after shot.
he misses the whole thing with spock scanning himself, because of course he does, and by the time he's satisfied with the range that's been cleared around him, spock's doing his comm fiddling and telling him all about how the remaining away team is gonna meet up with them. ]
Great.
[ he sounds a little too tired to be sarcastic, but that anger from earlier isn't gone: it's simmering under his skin, waiting for anything to trigger it. for the moment, nothing is.
he settles in at a point to watch out for the surrounding area. eventually, his comm crackles with its own response. ]
Enterprise ETA is ninety.
[ ninety minutes to hold out. doable, he thinks. his phaser's got enough juice to last with him taking potshots as necessary, and—
—there's something odd about spock's posture. just a little. someone who doesn't know spocks as well as jim does wouldn't even notice. jim's eyes narrow from his perch on a rocky outcropping, and for a moment, all his attention is laser-focused on the captain. ]
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[ That the anger is only temporarily banked is obvious, at least to Spock. Acceptable. He himself is unable to muster any kind of positive feeling toward the mission; Kirk is certainly in a glowering terrible mood that is only worsening as their time on the planet lengthens. And that is without knowing of Spock's injury. Though it is unlikely he will be able to keep it from Kirk, and furthermore, would be unwise to, Spock is reluctant to admit to it and turn Kirk's simmering anger into boiling rage.
But as he sits, feeling Kirk's eyes on him, heavy with the intensity and suspicion of his stare, there is no point to prolonging the inevitable. Kirk is already well aware something is wrong. ]
As my First Officer, I am duty-bound to inform you that I have been injured during the course of the mission.
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[ that's it. no witty banter, no back and forth, just a curt agreement.
that's the best of it though, because as soon as spock speaks to him again, the way his anger flares would be felt in orbit were he not a psi-null species. he stands and stalks over like a predator animal, looking spock over. ]
I knew it. Where is it? Show me.
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After a moment, he nods and sets the communicator down next to his phaser. Slowly, meticulously, he rolls up his sleeve.
A long, ragged cut along his forearm is smeared with blood, dried, tacky splotches spattered across Spock's skin. Several incandescent threads of the planet's invasive fungi glitter along the edges of the wound. ]
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spock rolls up his sleeve and jim only barely doesn't punch him in the face. he does grip his arm vice-tight, however, at the elbow, and examine the wound. his eyes keep flicking to the fungal bits. ]
When did this happen?
[ a flat demand. his grip on spock's arm is hard enough to bruise but he doesn't even notice because he's too busy running through scenarios in his head. ]
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Kirk's fury roils over his mind. Spock spends a moment stifling the spill of Kirk's thoughts, ensuring his own emotional control is not affected, before he answers. ]
During initial contact with the native hosts. [ He knows what he says next will only infuriate Kirk all the more. He says it anyway. ] I was able to prevent Ensign Ro from coming into contact with the spores.
[ He was the first one who realized the parasitic nature of the native flora and the carrier fauna during that initial slaughter. He knew full well what he was doing when he took the wound for her. ]
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fa'vi'do is out, no one else has shown up yet, and jim just reels back and slams his fist into spock's face. just the once, but it takes a lot of effort to keep it to that. the amount of rage he'd already felt is nothing compared to what he feels now; incandescent and overwhelming. ]
Of course. Of course you were, you stupid fuck.
[ spock knew exactly what he was doing then, and jim knows what spock was doing also. he yanks spock in real close against himself, voice a low hiss. ]
If you think I'm going to let you off so easily you really are stupid.
[ foolish. spock doesn't get to preach all the shit jim heard him preach to his jim over the years before everything went to shit about a captain not sacrificing themselves because the crew needs him and then turn around to do shit like this. ]
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Silently, Spock waits, distantly curious to see if Kirk will attempt to strike him again. The flashfire blaze of Kirk's feelings certainly makes it seem likely, but he's only reeled in, head tilting automatically to catch Kirk's low, furious hiss. ]
While your intent is duly noted, I am curious what you believe you can do to avoid "letting me off."
[ A sardonic curl of his lips. Dying had hardly been his aim, even if it may be a consequence of his actions. ]
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none of that relative peace or calm is present now. he keeps his grip on spock and grins, wide and nasty. ]
You really think I'd let you stay dead? As long as I get you into stasis before you pop, you can be brought back. How many times have I died, Spock? Once by your hand! And here I am, on my feet, by your fucking side.
[ the line of his throat is tense, though. it relies heavily on timing. there has to be an intact body for the mccoys to manage anything, which is why he had lost—
—the others of the crew appear over the ridge and jim lets spock go, schooling his expression but only barely. ]
Roll your damn sleeve down, Captain.
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As a result, the threat — and it clearly is a threat, Spock is able to tell even without Kirk's bruising grip — does not land with the hostility Kirk clearly intends.
The other crew members are far enough away that Spock does not worry about them overhearing as he responds. ]
Indeed, you are here at my side. [ Pointedly, he touches the back of his hand to Kirk's and projects his satisfaction at having Kirk here, how he has not even once this mission considered that Kirk might be in any way unreliable despite the fury Spock has been certain he would ignite. How deeply he trusts Kirk. ] However, your resurrection methods may have some difficulty so long as the spores remain inside my body.
[ Placidly, Spock tugs his sleeve down, covering the wound. He would prefer to avoid death if at all possible. It is unlikely, but at the least, he has lasted a significantly longer time than any other member of the crew as himself despite the infection. ]
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not to say he is not also annoyed at spock's smug satisfaction. he looks at spock a long moment, eyes narrow, before he finally speaks again. ]
Payback's a bitch for that time I was in stasis for three weeks to clear out that Tranoxian virus, Spock.
[ and that's the end of that conversation point; they no longer have time for this and jim takes a step back to greet them.
ensign ro is not present. his jaw tightens again. ]
Ensign Neetah, report.
[ he is barely fucking hanging on here. if ro is goddamn dead after the shit spock pulled, he's not going to be able to contain it. ]
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The amusement is short lived — would have been, already, due to his current situation, but it is even more swiftly stamped down as Neetah haltingly relays her information.
Ensign Ro unwisely attempted to reason with one of her friends who was infected; her belief that she would be able to get through to him despite the advanced stage of his infection led to receiving a bite wound through which the spores entered her system. When it was discovered by the rest of the party that she was now a carrier of the parasites, she had insisted that she would be able to resist their influence. The crew, unwilling to abandon one of their own, had allowed her to accompany them toward the rendezvous point. Though the spores in Ensign Ro's system eventually proliferated enough to present visible symptoms, she did not inform the others.
When the parasites inevitably seized control of her nervous system and motor functions, Ro was killed by Lieutenant Junior Grade Comilla, though not before infecting Comilla herself.
Comilla refused to travel any further with the other crew, instead choosing to remain behind and attempt to hold off the group of natives drawn to the noise of their altercation.
As Neetah finishes her report, Spock does not allow himself to stiffen. He does, however, slant a glance at Kirk, eyes dark as he searches for the man's reaction. ]
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however, jim does not explode. he does not yell, he does not even turn and punch spock in the face again.
something about him seems to visibly settle; when he speaks again it's crisp and businesslike but completely detached. ]
Thank you for your report, Ensign.
[ she looks surprised: jim rarely thanks anyone for anything, and when he does it's often sarcastic. this at least seems perfunctory and not mocking. she and kora'g have never seen anything like this from jim.
it is the same as when he'd snapped his mind shut like a steel trap to keep spock out of his head before he could find out that he was impersonating his other self. the cutoff from all outward appearance of emotion or availability to telepathic connection is sudden and complete.
he tilts his head slightly. it looks a little wrong. just a little. ]
The Enterprise's ETA is a little under an hour. Be prepared for immediate retrieval upon arrival.
[ then he brings out his tricorder and scans both ensigns that managed to actually show up. ]
Just a precaution. Both clear, Captain.
[ there's no inflection. ]
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[ Crisp and calm, as though Kirk's perfectly professional attitude is nothing out of the ordinary. The other crew members are staring at him as though expecting him to whip off a mask and reveal he is an evil double; the reaction is not surprising as Kirk has never before bothered to control himself to such a degree around anyone but Spock.
If this is meant to further punish Spock for his actions — and he has no doubt that Kirk fully intends that — it is ineffective. Perhaps had Kirk been his bondmate the sudden lack of even ambient psychic read would be more than a snub, but as he is not... More likely, though, is that Kirk is too infuriated to maintain anything but this forced calm. Though he is better at hiding it, Kirk is just as unwilling to face a loss of control as Jim had been, and even Spock, who sincerely regrets the loss of Ensign Ro's life, had felt an uncharitable blaze of emotion upon hearing how she had died, stupidly and needlessly.
He nods to the gathered crew members, and orders them off to the cliffs to rest and care for their various wounds. There is no point in instructing Kirk to join them, or in attempting to rest himself. He will be unable to, and he is not stupid enough to give an order he is aware Kirk will not obey.
When they are settled, he takes a seat on one of the nearby rock outcroppings. No one else will mark it as a sign of weakness, but he has no illusions that Kirk will fail to notice. Until Kirk raises some topic of conversation, though, he is perfectly willing to wait for the Enterprise to arrive in dead silence. ]
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for one of the very, very few times in his life, jim feels tired. bone-deep exhaustion of the sort that sleep would never fix. he felt this way after spock died, but worse. he'd been able to an extent maintain an image, a reputation for what he's always been.
but there's a reason he left to go to an entirely different timeline, isn't there? he couldn't stand to be there, couldn't see an empty space where there once wasn't, and he was and is too much of a fucking coward to end it in a way that he can't be brought back from. they were supposed to die together. kill each other. he made that so fucking clear over the years and fuck, spock had had a disruptor with him when he died. he could have shot jim in the face and ended them together. or even just let him stay in the same space with him as the localized self-destruct counted down but he didn't. he just fucking looked at jim and dropped the bulkhead between them when there wasn't enough time left for jim to override it. and what was he supposed to do then?
fuck. he feels like he's gonna puke. there's a reason he never thinks about this, either.
he realizes he's been staring at nothing for a while, way too long, but his eyes skate over to where spock is sitting. a bubble of anger and something else rises in his throat but he swallows it down before it smothers him.
he walks over to where spock is sitting, limbs tight in a way only the captain would notice, and sits next to him. the silence draws on for a long, long time.
finally, his voice flat: ]
I don't get it.
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When he speaks, Spock calmly turns to look at him. ]
I require further clarification.
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