bakerstreet | Love confessions

[ota, let me know if you'd like to avoid 3.2 spoilers.]

[s1, s2, postcanon, whatever]

[do you have a preference for s1, s2, or postcanon? If you would like a Jayce to RP with, of course. :>]

[OHOHO i would love that! i don't have any strict preference, so i'm fine with anything you're feeling up for!]

[Yay! Okay so here's a couple of options I was thinking of and you let me know what you would prefer? I used the love confession generator above for funsies to figure these out.

1) S1 - “If only you could see yourself as I see you.” Right after the distinguished innovators competition maybe? At the after party?
2) S1 - "I would give all of this up for you." After Viktor is in the hospital. Maybe Jayce insists on following him home and sticks to him like glue. & he ends up telling Viktor that he would give up being a councilor for him.
3) Postcanon - “I’m not letting you push me away anymore” and/or “you’re not alone anymore”. All I can think of is they end up in the middle of nowhere with their cabin. And are confronted with their feelers. There is no escaping.

Let me know if you think of something better too. I just put lil vague ideas so we have somewhere to start!]

[oh man those sound fun as hell :|a hmmm....2 sounds like a mess (glowing affection) so i'd be down for that! do you want to write something up or should i?]

[I was hoping you would pick #2 LOL. That's the one I liked the most! Would you mind writing the starter? I feel like it would make more sense to start with Viktor's POV. And if you end up liking my Jayce and we do another thread at some point, I write the next starter? :>]

[When it came to matters of accepting help, Viktor's boundaries were rigidly defined and enforced. Which was to say, he didn't. Concern towards him usually took the form of pity and patronization towards some wretched broken thing that was blatantly less than and incapable. And he loathed that, pushing himself to and past his limits for years as if to prove to the world and himself that he was completely fine, independent and self-sufficient no matter his glaring faults.]

[...It was different, when it came to Jayce. True, Viktor had been wary at first all those years ago--but no matter how he scrutinized, searched, analyzed every single facet of every interaction, all Viktor had ever found was sincerity. Care instead of condescension, genuine concern that never pushed those ironclad boundaries. Even when Viktor's personal space was invaded a thousand times over, he found it was just part of the person he was dealing with--warm and open in way Viktor himself simply was not, and so he allowed that as well.]

[So, a hundred thousand silently permitted things he would never have given to anyone else had now culminated in this. He couldn't remember how he'd gotten from the lab to the hospital (something twisting uncomfortably in his chest told Viktor that logically, Jayce would be the most likely person to have stumbled across him) but he allowed his partner to escort him home without complaint. Even if he had wanted to refuse, he just...didn't have the energy for it. Drained mentally and phyically, with the absolute best case scenario of 'less than a year' hanging over him like an executioner's blade, Viktor was very quiet as they left the hospital and eventually entered a small, well-organized and (lately, rarely visited) apartment.]

...Thank you. [Absentmindedly dropping his keys on a side table as he stepped inside, Viktor said that in a heavily distracted tone; lost in his own head for justifiable reason.] I can handle matters from here.

[This entire situation was his worst nightmare. Jayce was the one that found Viktor. Was the one that got emergency services to come and take him to the hospital. He was the one that sat next to Viktor and fell apart at the seams as soon as the doctor told him the news. Nothing felt real. Even with the red, puffy eyes and raw nose from crying at the hospital.

Maybe the reason Jayce threw himself so hard into his councilwork was to avoid the truth and inevitability of loss. Losing Viktor was something he avoided thinking about at all costs. The idea of a future without Viktor in it was laughable to Jayce. Everything he was, was somehow tied to his partner in some shape or form. And he loved that. To be honest, he was greedy and wanted even more. But now they were out of time. Jayce no longer had that luxury of 'putting it off for another day'. The days were running out fast.

He had a lot to think about. When his brain was less scrambled, at least.

Jayce remained glued to Viktor even after he got cleared to leave the hospital. Insisted on making sure he got home okay. And now he was going to talk Viktor into letting him stay the night. Or try, at least.]

V, I don't doubt that you're capable of taking care of yourself, but there is no way in hell that I'm going home after all this. [He squeezed past his partner so he could make himself comfortable in the kitchen.] I'll sleep on your couch. I've done it before, I'll do it again. Now do you think you could eat? I don't know what you have here, but I'm sure I can figure something out. If not, I can get us food from somewhere.

Edited 2025-04-14 00:56 (UTC)

Jayce-

[There was the slightest strain of something warning in Viktor's tone; it wuld have been a lie to say this exact situation was unexpected, but he had been hoping it waas avoidable. He would much rather have screamed in frustration in privacy, thank you very much.]

I understand your concern, but I am no less capable of cooking for myself. And if I were at any immediate risk I would still be in the hospital. [Debating the merits of escaping out a window, probably.] There is no reason for you to go to such trouble.

[Jayce heard that tone in Viktor's voice and even though he internally shrank at it, there was no way he was going to bend to Viktor's will this time. This was serious and Jayce was unwilling to be separated from him right now.]

I never doubted that you could, V. And I know. [He sighed heavily, brow knit in concern.] I'd like to do this for you, if you would let me. [Jayce was too anxious, too worried to mask his feelings right now.] Viktor. I'm begging you. Please get comfortable and just let me do this for you. It's not because I think you can't do it yourself. You are the most resilient, stubborn person I know. I don't doubt that you could. I'd just like to be helpful. [God knows he hasn't been for far too long. Too absorbed in the council and his image to see how much his best friend -- his partner -- was deteriorating.]

[Viktor pinched the bridge of his nose and took a slow, careful breath that tugged uncomfortably in his chest. Stubborn as he wanted to be, he had to acknowledge it wasn't worth the argument, least of all when he ws this wrung out.]

I wish you would not, but... [Accepting defeat, he slowly sank into a chair.] ...just this once.

[As much as he hated it, Viktor still understood--as always--his intent was uniquely sincere.]

Edited 2025-04-14 09:28 (UTC)